Just Waiting On That One Moment

   
     So, I realize I only ever talk about the Honor Academy, summer volunteering, Teen Mania, etc., but they say where your treasure is, there your heart is also, right? My heart is in Tyler for reasons no one could explain, let alone myself.

     But hey, it's a great place. I mean, when I am there, I feel like I am in a protective covering. Like no harm could ever befall me...strange. I feel more loved, more safe, more spontaneous, more courageous, more joyful, more friendly. I just feel more.
   
     I wander sometimes how a heart could fall in love. Either with a person or place (in my case though, it's a place, haha). I can only say that it's Jesus Christ who makes me feel this way. Who makes anyone feel that way. Just an overpowering sense of awe and beauty over the strangest things. Any mention of it, and you're all ears.

     Yeah, this post is kind of all over the place, but isn't that what blogs for? Like an inside look to your mind?? My mind is just everywhere all at once, and yet it's in the same place. Kinda cool how that works.

     This post doesn't have any spine to it...just a beautiful way to express my feelings without boring people in "real life". Although yeah they can read it on here, but they can skip when they get bored. So you know, it's whatever.

     Sometimes I feel like my life hasn't taken off, like I am just waiting for that one moment to come. Just that one moment. But looking back, my life began when I was born. The first several years were slow, just because I was growing up (and I still am in many ways), but it began nonetheless.

     I look back and I see the first time I left home for a long period of time. I look back to when I got my first job. When I started to drive. When I fell in love. My life is on at full speed and yet I feel like a snail, just waiting for that one moment.

     And that moment could be anything. The second I step onto Tyler soil, that second when I get my passport. When I get to Africa, when I really fall in love. When I get married. When I have a baby....it could be any of those moments...but it's not. It's right here, right now.

     My life is going. The power switch is on. I don't have to wait for that one moment, I just really need to focus on here and now. Here. Right now. Breathe. Take it all in. You only live once. Why wait for that one moment when you could be living in those sixty seconds making up the minute?

     So, while I dance in anticipation for that one moment to come, I can look around at my life and say "You're in that moment. Live in it. Live in the moment. The moment of your life. Because when that one minute is over, there won't be any moments left."